Reach out to someone.
Do this over and over and over AND OVER again.
If you take BACK YOUR HAND. It's ok. IT'S OK.
Count to 5. THEN—
Put it out there again.
Keep doing this. OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN—

You will notice after a while THAT
The clarity you initially possessed EVAPORATES AND
Any sense of system YOU ONCE HAD is NOW in bits and doubts and tatters—
This is how to make your own BF—

NOW